January 31: This Weekend

[kinetic_elaboration]

Good news is I had an idea for how to finally finish my yotp series from last year. Bad news is that I think it might be something I need to split into two parts. Extra bad news is that I’m too tired to write either of those parts today.

I have been trying to rest up this weekend and also not worry about stuff I can’t work on right now but both things are kind of hard. Especially the second one. First of all, I don’t entirely know what ‘resting’ means, like what I most need on the self-care front. And second, I can’t fully keep all my worries, especially my school worries, out of my mind. I really, really hope that I can do a lot on the train back. I hope I don’t need to nap at all and I hope I see real progress on the assignment I have that’s due on Wednesday. I did do real work on the train up but, first of all, I slept for 90 minutes, and second, preliminary work is necessary and time consuming but doesn’t feel like it’s anything. You can’t see the work product yet, even in its early form. I did have some additional thoughts about it and I think I know how I’m going to do it/conceive of it. So–yeah, hopefully it doesn’t take too overwhelmingly long. But I guess if it does, it just… does. Sigh.