January 18: More Schoolwork

[kinetic_elaboration]

I might have pushed myself too hard today because I’m feeling pretty burned out now. I feel like I’ve done a lot. I feel like I’ve done nothing. I feel like there’s so much left to do, like I have plenty of time, like I have no time. I’m fully aware that I am not in a place to consider anything objectively.

Tomorrow I’m going to do just a small amount of school work, if any at all. Hopefully that break will help clear my head some. I want to actually enjoy my long weekend at least a little bit.

Anyway, my brain is very no thoughts head empty again. I wish I had interesting stuff to say because I hate being boring so many days in a row. I refuse to talk about school though. I don’t want that in my head even more.

I kind of hate being so tired I can’t even think about the future. Can’t form coherent thoughts. Definitely won’t be doing any writing tonight, even my 300 words, and no before bed reading either. Which I haven’t done in forever and would love to get back to. Everything is just piling up…or so it feels. I’ve also lost track of the concept of time… it’s not “Sunday,” it’s 2/3 of 3 day no-work stretch finished.

Yesterday I hit this wall at about this time and instead of following it to sleep I somehow accidentally pushed past it and then it was 2am. Not today! Today, I am going to bed.