January 16: Tired

[kinetic_elaboration]

I feel so wiped out, in a way that I guess makes sense but still surprises me. It’s been kind of a week. A part of me thinks, but aren’t weeks going to be like this? Not like this exactly but busy in some way?

I don’t know. I felt like I hit a wall around 3 or so and after that I could have literally fallen asleep at my desk. I woke up a little bit being outside to walk home, but then when I got back to my apartment I took a little nap. It wasn’t very comfortable… I felt cold (probably because hungry) and hungry and I didn’t move at all while I slept. I got up to eat. I thought that would help a lot but it didn’t really. I still feel intensely tired.

I tried writing a little, not because I wanted to, but because I felt like I was making excuses. Got like 23 words lmao. I think ‘I actually feel like I can barely put two thoughts together and my body hurts’ is a pretty good excuse so I’ll be running with that one.

I still need to shower. Maybe after that I really will get up very early… I am worried about tomorrow, about getting myself to start early and stay focused and get as much as possible done on my schoolwork. But I guess I have a better chance of doing that if I rest well now.