January 15: Today's Adventure

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I have done some resting this evening and now my brain is OFF and it should stay that way until I can get some sleep and wake up tomorrow ready to go again.

My main accomplishment today was getting my ears professionally cleaned so that they are no longer bothering me. Now that they’re not bothering me, I feel like this is not a big deal because I have the object permanence of a toddler, especially when it comes to my own Suffering. But it was a big deal. They’ve been bothering me steadily more and more for… a while? weeks probably. And the last couple of days it’s been really bad. I could barely hear people today; it was like cotton in my head.

 

I kind of decided impulsively to go to urgent care. It’s always this way with me: I put something off and then I do it very suddenly because the stars have just aligned or whatever. I was hoping I could still get home at my normal time if I took a slightly earlier reservation but alas, it was not so. I was waiting so long over there. I’m actually quite sure I fell asleep (more than once) in the waiting room. There was literally no one there but something was going on (? couldn’t hear the explanation!) so all the practitioners were busy. Then when I was brought back, I was abandoned again. Literally started wondering if I’d died and was in purgatory.

Then the most upbeat RN in the world talked to me about how much he loved his job as he did a way better job with my ears than the last person I saw, who made me feel so dizzy it was actually kinda scary. This was way easier. Another person came to look at my ears again, and poked at them this time (this was new, and, on one occasion, very painful); at one point there were literally three people in there with me and my fascinating ears. This is why you have such a backlog of people in your waiting room!

So all in all I was there a while. It definitely could be worse but still. Then I thought I knew where a more efficient bus stop was but I did not, so I wandered around in the cold and wind for a while and then by the most amazing stroke of luck in the world, I wandered past the bus stop I was looking for about 1 minute before the bus showed up. Thus I was only a half hour late coming home.

And since then I have done nothing! Not a thing!!!! That’s probably bad in some ways but look at me not caring. I am tired. I dealt with both my internet and my ears this week and a variety of other, smaller things, so in keeping with this year’s attitude, I’m going to be proud of that. Plus, I still have tomorrow. My idea is I’m going to go balls to the wall at work and then just watch a movie or something at home, and try to be rested for Saturday, where I’m going to have an LS500 marathon. (Hopefully not jinxing myself by saying that….)

But–none of that is a problem for me right now. I am no thoughts, head empty at the moment, I’m afraid.