January 9: Writing Thoughts

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I had at least the vague thought that I would write today but, I don’t know, I’m exhausted and I can’t settle on an idea. It’s been months since I did anything really standalone, I’ve realized: I’ve been working on parts of larger stories (like Cliche) or my YOTP series. Which is fine, it’s just sort of weird to realize, and I should probably get back to the practice of coming up with a free standing idea and just running with it.

But I should also finish the YOTP series, so.

I spent some time at the Starbucks today (the only coffee shop open past 5pm when the students aren’t here lol), working through some thoughts and some writing thoughts in particular. I don’t know how productive it was exactly but sometimes it feels good to slow down some thoughts I’m already having and think them through to their conclusions. My creative thoughts/impulses are definitely in a bit of a whirl. I’m kind of in between projects and kind of not. I feel like if I haven’t been able to write as often as I want/as often as I need to really balance projects in the way I want to before, I definitely won’t have that time in the months coming up. And yet. I feel like I need some space. Some creative space.

I don’t know. I’m hoping that as I block off chunks of time to work on different things, one of those things can be writing, and also that maybe balancing more types of tasks might… make that balancing easier. By which I sort of mean weaponizing avoidance but not entirely. Maybe weaponizing the list.

The creativity feels all jumbled. It is easier when there’s One Project right at the front burner for one reason or another; no need to make decisions and no need to think about the others. Now I have to decide priorities again like ugh. But I suppose it’s not really something to think through but just to do, when I have time.