January 4: Traveling Day

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Big traveling day today. I was worried about it but it honestly went pretty well until the last bit or so. I either slept or zoned out for the first leg. Then during my layover, I had lunch and good conversation with @riotsquirrrl. And during the second leg, I got some reading done, and another nap. My first train was actually early into the station and my second was a little late but not that much.

But when I was about an hour from my stop, I tried to schedule a Lyft, as I usually do, and I had such a horrible time with the wifi that I thought I wouldn’t be able to do it at all. So I started panicking a little. I eventually got it scheduled, but the earliest I could get a ride was 9, and my train, even delayed, got in before that. And Lyft had a hard time getting me a driver, which added to my anxiety about how long I’d be stranded in the station. My wifi continued to be shoddy all the way home, so i began to suspect it was my phone. But now my laptop is also loading the internet slowly and it’s dropped it a couple times, even though I seem to have a strong signal. It could be two separate issues I guess: that my phone is old and my modem is old. But honestly it just feels like getting kicked by an unexpected problem and I do not want to deal with it!

Also on the train I thought of a couple of more tasks I wanted to add to my new big list of tasks, and now I can’t remember them. I know this is fine and does not matter: if they are important, I’ll remember later. But I feel weirdly anxious about it, which I recognize is the general anxiety needing a place to go and/or a feeling of lack of control that comes from being in a transition state/coming back to my apartment/starting work tomorrow/etc.

Big thing tomorrow is getting through my first day back at work, and making sure I have a list for the week and making sure that I am prepared to go grocery shopping on Tuesday. And that’s IT. I gotta preserve energy here.