May 4: Return

[kinetic_elaboration]

I’m so exhausted and grungy. I had a good weekend but I did a lot and I don’t necessarily feel ready to go back to work. And do all the other things (an Experience to come back after a weekend away to half your closet in your living room–though I do think this is an improvement on half your closet in your bedroom). There are so many things and so many categories of things. And I am so tired.

I keep forgetting that I do in fact have a week’s vacation coming up. I do need it. I’m really looking forward to seeing my parents–though there is a part of me that feels a good staycation would also be helpful. One might say ‘why not both’ but I only have so many vacation days lol.

Anyway, neither one will fix me (I hate to admit it but neither will the lists) but the time off will probably help. I know myself well enough to know what 'oh I’m actually getting really run down’ feels like and it’s something like this. Plus my sick day-and-a-half last week felt so good: yes, my body sucked, but I wasn’t bedridden, I was able to take long naps I sorely needed, and accomplish some stuff, and I really didn’t miss people or socializing at all. And then I came back Thursday and was miserable! So, maybe that says something about where I’m at right now.