October 25: Some Writing Thoughts

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I’ve been feeling the desire to tackle my writing projects but because the time/energy alignment has not been present, I’m mostly just wistfully watching them from afar, unsure how I will ever balance allll of these things.

I’ve fairly well decided I’ll start with the fic that has an outline and that I can see the ending of. The ending isn’t close but I can see it and know where it is so when I write I will at least be working toward something concrete. I just need to be goal oriented rather than process oriented until I get at least 1 or 2 things off my huge list of projects. More importantly, my huge list of current projects or front-burner projects.

Part of what was keeping me from working on it was really, really not wanting to deal with the next chapter, which is where basically all the real conflict is. I’ve since reconfigured it to be a bit easier and less intimidating (perhaps also better?), and today I thought in as detailed a way as possible of what it will actually look like and tried to make it seem real and manageable, not mythical and distant. I HOPE to work on it tomorrow. And I hope that it goes well and I feel a sense of accomplishment at moving along with it. I am just so out of practice. With this story, with so many others…

And I’m tired. So–it’s hard to imagine really being able to do work, I guess. But I will!