October 16: More Notes About Me

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I suppose I shall be boring and talk about myself more today because if I do end up writing creatively, it’ll be something for me. And even that I probably shouldn’t do because I should be getting to sleep.

I feel so wired. I want to do stuff. But–I want to do stuff later. I want to be accomplished but I want better circumstances for that accomplishment. A big block of time and a bunch of energy and the Right List or something. I really need to do shit at home tomorrow after work and Saturday morning.

I have been trying to focus on moving physical items away from me at work. This is difficult because of all of the physical items but I just need to not feel so crowded in all the time. And I did get a couple of large items off my desk and get more done on the Project–not the hardest stuff, but it was time consuming, and I got rid of another cart. Just… aaah, so many things.

I also prodded at school stuff, discovered new problems that were only vaguely unrelated, and then had another similar but worse experience trying to do something, I can’t even really remember what, on my personal laptop. I think the thing was ‘open a document.’ And then I kept running into problems and I fixed one but not the other and it made me so bitter. I don’t like being sucked into problem rabbit holes. But whatever. It’s fine, and since then I’ve been… chilling, doing tasks that are very simple, etc.

Tomorrow I have a bunch of stuff I want to do at work but I’m also supposed to get out early, which is pretty nice. I hope to drink more coffee and have some notebook time, even though it’s been a while since I wrote anything really interesting or useful during such times. Oh well! It still feels good, mentally.