October 13: Tired Day

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I’ve been so fucking tired today. I don’t know if this is a body thing, a mind thing, a weather thing, or a secret fourth thing. It wasn’t even the whole day, but I hit a fatigue wall around 3:30 or 4 and it derailed my afternoon and now I’m tired again, I guess understandably, since it’s late. But this is with a nap. I don’t know. I feel a bit overwhelmed to be honest. I’ve been toying with the idea that maybe I’m getting sick (minor but not non-existent evidence for this) but that’s probably just my desire to not go to work talking. I really desire not to go to work.

Just remembered I think there’s free food tomorrow. Hmm. Desire to go to work reactivated.

I also spent almost half my workday at the main library at a candidate presentation and interview that I probably had little business attending, but it was interesting. I forgot about it beforehand, I couldn’t go to the other candidate presentation/interview, and I don’t know that much about the position. But I got something out of going. I’m curious what will happen, and I’d be curious to be a fly on the wall in those committee meetings.

But it was also a big chunk of the day, is the thing. I’ve caught up from my absence and now I’m just like surrounded by THINGS and I don’t know what to do with half the things and it’s so overwhelming.

Just feeling some degree of incoherent yearning. I dunno!