September 11: Work and Home

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I’m not going to be saying anything coherent or interesting today because I have had a long day and I just need to cross things off the list at this point. And I’m glad to do that.

Today was one of my working late days. I was mostly jumping around among projects I’ve been avoiding–getting things done but not long-term focused on anything in such a way that would make the time go by faster. I just knew I was in it for a long time. We had a staff birthday party in the afternoon, which helped eat up some time. Conversation was pretty distracting–veered off into this discussion about this AI training that some people are doing tomorrow, for longer than I would have liked, but I enjoyed the part where we talked about how big of a nerd M is.

The last hour and a half I was alone in the department, getting increasingly distracted. Also starting to feel bad physically. I thought it wouldn’t be a big deal but I felt worse by the time I got home, so I spent some time on the couch, first accomplishing some stuff I needed to do on the computer and then just waiting it out.

When I felt better, I felt a lot better though–I think eating helped, though I’m still hungry! and thirsty!–and since then I’ve been packing, doing some light cleaning, etc. Nothing too out there but at least I’m getting some bare minimum stuff done. I feel very much like ‘that’s good enough, whatever, good enough for now,’ about everything. But that’s a fine enough place to be.

I’m also trying to do edits. The most half-assed edits I’ve ever done because I put off doing them!! I feel like I’m not in a place to judge this properly because I am impatient with myself, my style, my creativity, my whole thing!! I’m not sure when that started, if it’s a today thing or a longer mood. Again, though… that’s just a problem to contemplate another time.