September 10: Wednesday

[kinetic_elaboration]

Tried to write but my heart’s not in it. I feel like between yesterday being busy/emotionally a lot and tomorrow being busy (and possibly emotionally fraught) I have just zoned right out of today. I did some stuff at work but I was mostly a sounding board for other people, or I was getting distracted without any outside assistance. And that’s fine! I’m between big projects right now and I feel like it’s one of those times where maybe I do less per day but I do things that are more annoying or that I’ve been putting off longer, etc. To everything there is a season and so on.

Anyway. The fall feeling outside has made me yearn a little. I want I want I want. But I’m not sure what! I am so close to getting some stuff done and I feel like once I have done that, the whole world will open up to me. Or something. I don’t know. I want to think about writing stuff again but I’ve cycled away to being very divorced from it. Like that’s so fake that I could ever work on… you know, ALL that. But, eventually I will care again.

Right now I still feel kind of out of it and confused because I took a nap after work. It was probably the best thing I could have done with my time but still… always hard to feel normal again after waking up and my day gets all cut up and I get confused about the time.

Soon, time to sleep again.