September 4: Today's Note

[kinetic_elaboration]

I actually did a lot of things I was supposed to do today, and I’m proud of that. I was pretty focused at work, didn’t quite finish but got to a significant milestone on something annoying, sat through an excruciating conversation I did not want to be part of, and was just generally quiet and productive. And after work, I went to the store and got a few things and was efficient about it.

I wrote my 300 words today, too. I am still Struggling but I just… I need to devote a certain amount of time to it each day. When I do that, and when I actually get into it for even 300 words, it’s still fun. It’s just hard to start. And it’s hard to feel confident when I’m not doing it. Also after I finished, it kind of fled out of my mind. Sort of a weird feeling.

Now I’m still awake, though I should not be! I sort of fell into a weird mode of anxiety and, like, circling creative thoughts, I guess. I can’t believe tomorrow is Friday. I would really like to have a creative weekend but…who knows?? Easier said than done. But also I feel like I need to get through a Hard Day first and I don’t wanna do it. Hence the anxiety.

Gotta shower and go to sleep.