September 2: Drawer Fic Thoughts

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I’ve been grievously ignoring my drawer fic, as it becomes harder and harder and my ideas get more and more tangled and I have fewer good experiences and more bad ones–but I want to turn this around! I want to find that momentum again. I’ve decided I won’t try to force myself it write it before bed. I’ve been doing too much putting it off and putting it off, and then giving as an excuse, well, it’s too late and I’m too tired and my thoughts are elsewhere anyway. But I want to go back to 300 words a day, just, whenever in the day. I’ve no idea if this will work or be easier but it’s like… hard to imagine it working LESS or being harder, so.

I’m still hoping I’ll reach a place where I hit a stride again, and it makes more sense and is fun and indulgent and instinctive. It’s really, really hard to pick up a habit once it’s fallen this far away. But I’m trying not to think about that or feel hard on myself about it. This fic is already so long and I’ve put so much work into it. Also I did in fact write ahead of where it’s posted so I can update it even before I climb out of this ditch. That’s good and might make it feel a little more real.