August 4: Microfilm Party

[kinetic_elaboration]

I need more time in my day so I can both just zone out for a while and also do things. Ah well. So it is. Got thrown into the deep end of work shit with the microfilm moving party today, which took up most of the day but in a weird way, from about 10 to 2.

It was okay by the end and I guess I’d say overall but the beginning was annoying and dumb. Too many people doing too few tasks. I always get antsy about things like this, not being sure what to do with myself, FOMO when I stand around being awkward and bored. I hate feeling useless. And while I don’t necessarily want to organize a complex task for other people, I don’t really like watching a complex task being organized while I do not help, because I like that process for myself. At any rate, I did a little at the beginning, then stood around for a while, then got to a place where I could mostly just work and get in the flow of it, which was a lot better. We had a break for lunch–pizza, which was better than I thought it would be–but then we had to go back to the actual work. Only like half of us returned though, which actually made things somewhat easier. I’d rather just DO the thing than jockey for things to do.

The rest of the day was really long despite it being already 2pm. I accomplished tasks, and then I went home. It’s not as hot out this week, which is nice. I hope the rest of the week stays this way, and the weekend.

I have so much to do tomorrow. Including grocery shopping, ugh.

I really want to write but it’s all jumbled up as to WHAT exactly. I mean, I have the next thing on my list, which is fine, but I have other vague desires that just won’t gel. I’d say ‘oh if I had more time’ but like, what was this weekend, hmm, self? I am never satisfied I suppose.