April 20: Sunday Note

[kinetic_elaboration]

I really don’t want to go to work tomorrow. I feel like my head has too many unprocessed thoughts in it and I need to be quiet and alone and generally disconnected for a bit and only then will they go down the bottle neck. Maybe I can be somehow chill and left alone but I doubt it.

Still missing Yellowjackets so I’ve been browsing the reddit but man is it insufferable. I’ve decided that the most annoying recurring sentiment is ‘so-and-so will deserve everything they get.’ This is deranged. They are not real. Characters are not real. I mean I also get attached to fictional characters and invested in fictional stories, duh, but sometimes I feel like I’m on a completely different planet than other people in terms of being able to discern fiction from reality. Speaking in moralistic terms with this show is especially bizarre to my mind because the set up is 'oh they will do terrible things.’ And then kind of the point is to revel in that. Like if you can’t even fully indulge in your own anger and perversion in the context of a fictional tv show than where can you? Literally nowhere? Are these emotions SO bad that they are safe to release literally nowhere, in no contained environment? What a fucking boring way to live.

Anyway. I’m going to sleep.