May 24: Self-Reflection

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Tired, ready to go to sleep. Not full of many thoughts. I’m transitioning slowly back into my regular, day-to-day, non-vacation life. I think I feel ready to do this.

Overall… I know I wasn’t doing too hot before my vacation. I think the time off helped and I’m feeling stronger now. What I hope is that I feel strong enough to build some good habits and sort of… generally fortify myself. Because like–some stuff is going to remain hard. I just want to minimize my reactions to it, I guess. I want to make my life easier on myself, not harder, which I feel I have somewhat been doing.

But at least I am in a place of feeling somewhat more optimistic–again, about my own abilities. That’s all I can do, all I can have control over. I am also trying to build myself up more in my own mind. I don’t know how I came to be down on myself as a person, but I don’t like it. So, it feels kind of silly but I am trying to hype myself up however I can.