May 27: Returning to Work

[kinetic_elaboration]

I am starting to fade very fast, which I suppose is understandable given the hour. Went back to work today. It was pretty quiet and I had a back log of work to do, so I mostly did that with a couple of breaks for talking to the people who were around. I wanted to go grocery shopping after work but it was too rainy. It’s tough because it’s going to be rainy all week but I’m hoping that maybe tomorrow will be rainy earlier in the day and clear by the time I have to be shopping. Kind of a gamble. Very annoying. But I didn’t feel like I had that much of a choice.

Instead of shopping, I just went home and did a little cleaning, and took a shower. Then I thought I would read but instead I spent some time zoning out, internet scrolling, TV watching. Some time off is essential for the brain. And I ate dinner.

The only things I really have to do now are brush my teeth and do some evening writing before bed, which is kind of nice.

I’m starting to feel a bit down on myself but I think that comes from being tired. I’m trying really hard to beat back negative thoughts where I perceive them because I don’t want to form bad habits in my brain. Also I’ve been up for a while and done a lot today. Except for the brain power needed to write, I really don’t need to have much of my brain on anymore.